This week I did pretty well. :D I didn't really have any sweets. I mean...hardly any. I only ate one meal on Christmas...but it was a BIG one! I almost made myself sick. Almost. I only worked out once this week...and walked 3 times. Yes, we are slacking a bit but it was Christmas. Stepping on the scale today I was hoping for a loss. I mean...really...I would've been SUPER disappointed if I had stayed the same or worse...gained. So I step on the scale...and I almost start jumping up and down from the excitement! I lost 3 lbs. this week. I LOST 3 LBS. DURING THE WEEK OF CHRISTMAS! OH MY GOSH!!!! It was the most amazing feeling. I can really do this. It is SO possible. I'm so very excited...can you tell?! :D
I'm contemplating joining a gym...or taking Jazzercise...or both. I know when David leaves I'll probably really need to join a gym. There are 2 that are very close to the house...I just need to decide which one. I mean...the 24 hour one is probably my best option. Then I won't have any excuses. Not any valid ones anyway.
Right now my total is -22 lbs. Yes, I do think that is absolutely AMAZING! I'm very proud of myself. I'm fully aware that my chances of meeting my -30 lbs. goal by next week is unlikely. That's ok. I'll end up getting pretty close. Any weightloss at this point is more than welcome. I mean...I would rather it be 3-5 lbs. a week if not more but I will welcome anything. Staying the same really sucks. Gaining is even worse. I haven't gained yet. The week that I do is NOT going to be fun. Hopefully it won't come to that. I think I'm pretty much in control at this point. I never go overboard...I tend to stop myself just before I make myself too full. Yes, you can SO be too full. Hopefully everyone is aware of that! :D At one point I had a hard time knowing when to stop. Usually I wouldn't realize it until I had already made myself sick. Not everyone has this problem...but I did. It is NO LONGER a problem...and that fact makes me smile. :D
So this weekend is going to be another challenge...a challenge that I plan on conquering! We will be in Atlanta this weekend...which means...lots of eating out. I know that I have the ability to make the right choices. I just have to decide to do so. I am going to have people with me to hold me accountable...and one that is willing to eat healthy with me. Yay! That will make it easier. To know that I'm not the only one NOT consuming the yummy goodness of grease and such will give me comfort. I know that sounds crazy...but I don't care. Hopefully this time next week I will be down at least 25 lbs. I'm hoping for more like 27. We shall see!! :D
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Friday, December 25, 2009
2009...
This may be a week early...but that's ok! :D I don't mind! Hahahaha!
Well...I have to admit a LOT of pretty amazing things happened this year. It will go down in the books as a year I'll never forget. I had a lot of "firsts" this year. That's probably what makes it so memorable.
I brought 2009 in with new friends. I met them in December and I think they're pretty amazing. I see them just about every Thursday now. :D I drive to Mt. Olive and attend a service for 18+ on Thursdays. I don't make it every week but I do try my best. I went to the beach with them this summer and we had SO much fun! I never get tired of meeting new people that's for sure!
I also flew on a plane for the first time. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I have to admit...the first time we hit turbulence I thought we were going to die! Haha! We obviously didn't and from then on I kind of knew what to expect.
I went out of the country for the first time EVER! It was AMAZING. We went to Costa Rica on a mission trip. We were there for 7 days and I can't wait to go back in 2010. Missions is something I would like to continue to be very involved with.
I went on my first cruise this year. It was SO much fun! I was the person that never thought I would do something like that. The thought of being out in the middle of the ocean with no land around kind of terrified me. It wasn't scary at all. It was actually one of the coolest things that I've ever experienced. I loved being able to go out on the deck and just look at the ocean for hours and know that nothing else was around. To think...God created all of this. AMAZING!
I found some things out about myself this year. Some of these things I have known and just never decided to do anything about it. Some are kind of...well...new. :D I realized that I'm selfish...more selfish than I'd thought...and I'm working on it. I'm very opinionated and not afraid to tell people what I think...but found that no matter what I will LOVE in any given situation. I'll let you know how I feel about whatever it might be but will LOVE no matter what. That's HUGE! I'm completely honest almost all of the time. Some people love that and some people just can't handle it. I prefer honesty...obviously some don't. I realized that I rely on people to much. I'm a people person...I don't know if that will ever change. What will change is who I place my total trust in. It shouldn't shatter my world when I hear someone might move out of state or to another country or whatever. I mean...being sad is definitely ok...but wondering what the heck I'm gonna do without them...isn't. There are these things called cell phones...and email...ooh...and let's go old school and say letters. If a person is that important to you then you will find a way to keep in touch. Period. It doesn't have to be the end of the world. So...it isn't. :D I can be happy for them! My trust is in the Lord. He has my whole world in His hands. He has a perfect plan for me. I'm completely ok with that.
I met David...randomly...this year. He became a friend....then my personal trainer....now he's one of my roommates. It's amazing how God works. The path He's prepared for us is SO cool. I obviously moved out of my house. For the first time in my life I don't live with my dad. I'm super excited about that! I also realized this year that I was tired of being unhealthy. I was offered help...and for some reason...this time...I decided that I'd take it. I will always be grateful for what David has done for me. He promised that he wouldn't give up on me but I couldn't give up on myself either. I think each of us has kept that promise so far. When he leaves I'll really have to keep that promise. I can't give up. I won't. :D I can't give him ALL the credit though. God placed us in each other's path...He also gave me the ability to get through this...to decide that it was time. I never thought I'd be successful in weightloss. NEVER. I think that's why I never stuck with it before. I mean...I'd try and it would last a couple of months and then I'd quit. I'd find some excuse...it was the summer...it was my birthday...someone's birthday...anyone's birthday. Not this time. I've realized that it's not worth it. Not anymore. I don't want to be this way anymore. I want to be healthy and I'm not doing this for anyone but me. :D I think that's very important. If you're doing it for anyone but you...then what happens when whoever you're doing it for isn't there anymore...or they decide to give up on you?! That's when you give up because the reason for doing it is gone. That's why my reason for making this decision is ME! i want to be happy with myself when I look in the mirror. I want to be satisfied with what I see. I don't want to have to worry that my stomach is hanging over my pants or my shirt has "all of a sudden" become too tight. I want to know that I'm continuing to workout. With or without David...I will do this. It's probably not going to be easy when he first leaves but it will get easier. I will find what works for me and I will do it to the best of my ability. At this point I've lost 20 lbs.!! Merry Christmas to me! :D I can do this...I will do this!!
2009 has been one AMAZING year! I can't wait to see what 2010 has in store! :D
Well...I have to admit a LOT of pretty amazing things happened this year. It will go down in the books as a year I'll never forget. I had a lot of "firsts" this year. That's probably what makes it so memorable.
I brought 2009 in with new friends. I met them in December and I think they're pretty amazing. I see them just about every Thursday now. :D I drive to Mt. Olive and attend a service for 18+ on Thursdays. I don't make it every week but I do try my best. I went to the beach with them this summer and we had SO much fun! I never get tired of meeting new people that's for sure!
I also flew on a plane for the first time. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I have to admit...the first time we hit turbulence I thought we were going to die! Haha! We obviously didn't and from then on I kind of knew what to expect.
I went out of the country for the first time EVER! It was AMAZING. We went to Costa Rica on a mission trip. We were there for 7 days and I can't wait to go back in 2010. Missions is something I would like to continue to be very involved with.
I went on my first cruise this year. It was SO much fun! I was the person that never thought I would do something like that. The thought of being out in the middle of the ocean with no land around kind of terrified me. It wasn't scary at all. It was actually one of the coolest things that I've ever experienced. I loved being able to go out on the deck and just look at the ocean for hours and know that nothing else was around. To think...God created all of this. AMAZING!
I found some things out about myself this year. Some of these things I have known and just never decided to do anything about it. Some are kind of...well...new. :D I realized that I'm selfish...more selfish than I'd thought...and I'm working on it. I'm very opinionated and not afraid to tell people what I think...but found that no matter what I will LOVE in any given situation. I'll let you know how I feel about whatever it might be but will LOVE no matter what. That's HUGE! I'm completely honest almost all of the time. Some people love that and some people just can't handle it. I prefer honesty...obviously some don't. I realized that I rely on people to much. I'm a people person...I don't know if that will ever change. What will change is who I place my total trust in. It shouldn't shatter my world when I hear someone might move out of state or to another country or whatever. I mean...being sad is definitely ok...but wondering what the heck I'm gonna do without them...isn't. There are these things called cell phones...and email...ooh...and let's go old school and say letters. If a person is that important to you then you will find a way to keep in touch. Period. It doesn't have to be the end of the world. So...it isn't. :D I can be happy for them! My trust is in the Lord. He has my whole world in His hands. He has a perfect plan for me. I'm completely ok with that.
I met David...randomly...this year. He became a friend....then my personal trainer....now he's one of my roommates. It's amazing how God works. The path He's prepared for us is SO cool. I obviously moved out of my house. For the first time in my life I don't live with my dad. I'm super excited about that! I also realized this year that I was tired of being unhealthy. I was offered help...and for some reason...this time...I decided that I'd take it. I will always be grateful for what David has done for me. He promised that he wouldn't give up on me but I couldn't give up on myself either. I think each of us has kept that promise so far. When he leaves I'll really have to keep that promise. I can't give up. I won't. :D I can't give him ALL the credit though. God placed us in each other's path...He also gave me the ability to get through this...to decide that it was time. I never thought I'd be successful in weightloss. NEVER. I think that's why I never stuck with it before. I mean...I'd try and it would last a couple of months and then I'd quit. I'd find some excuse...it was the summer...it was my birthday...someone's birthday...anyone's birthday. Not this time. I've realized that it's not worth it. Not anymore. I don't want to be this way anymore. I want to be healthy and I'm not doing this for anyone but me. :D I think that's very important. If you're doing it for anyone but you...then what happens when whoever you're doing it for isn't there anymore...or they decide to give up on you?! That's when you give up because the reason for doing it is gone. That's why my reason for making this decision is ME! i want to be happy with myself when I look in the mirror. I want to be satisfied with what I see. I don't want to have to worry that my stomach is hanging over my pants or my shirt has "all of a sudden" become too tight. I want to know that I'm continuing to workout. With or without David...I will do this. It's probably not going to be easy when he first leaves but it will get easier. I will find what works for me and I will do it to the best of my ability. At this point I've lost 20 lbs.!! Merry Christmas to me! :D I can do this...I will do this!!
2009 has been one AMAZING year! I can't wait to see what 2010 has in store! :D
Sunday, December 20, 2009
-19 lbs.!!! Whoo hoo!! :D
Well...I've lost 19 lbs. so far. That's amazing!
I started this journey on November 16th...that's just about 5 weeks. :D I'd say I'm doing pretty good so far. I should have lost more but I had one week where I did stay the same. I'm not gonna dwell on that though. It's normal to hit a plateau every now and then. I'm gonna stay positive and say that -19 lbs. is absolutely AMAZING! :D I'm really impressed with myself actually. I mean...don't get me wrong. If I was having to do this on my own right now I probably wouldn't be doing this well. Luckily...God sent someone my way that was willing to help me out! I'm super thankful for that. In the near future I will be doing this on my own. That kind of terrifies me...I'm not gonna lie. It also makes me want to prove that I can do this. David can't always be there to make me. I'm gonna have to learn how to do this without him. I will learn to do this on my own. Before he leaves we're going to make sure I'm fully prepared. Pre-made workouts and all. :D
So...I could still meet my goal of -30 lbs. by January 2nd but I would really have to do AMAZINGLY well at Christmas. I mean...I could do it. What better present to myself than to have truly reached my first small goal! That's what I'm hoping for anyways. Time will tell. Even if I don't reach my goal I'll end up getting really close. I'm ok with that. I mean...I want to be down 30 lbs. I really do. I just have to make it happen. So this week I'm going to be really focussed. No sweets. Well...I will be having at least one of Pam's special Christmas cookies. They're amazing and she only makes them a couple times a year. I'll just have to save up some calories for that one. :D No going over my calories! No way! It's totally not worth it. You only taste that food for like 5 minutes...but it can have long lasting effects on your life. Especially if you continually eat the wrong stuff. So the plan is to make it through this week and then it should be smoothe sailing from that point on. Awe...sailing. :D Anyways...hopefully I'll be down at least 5 or 6 lbs. next week...which would mean that I would be 4 lbs. away from my goal. Whooo hoooo!!!!! I SO GOT THIS!!! :D
I started this journey on November 16th...that's just about 5 weeks. :D I'd say I'm doing pretty good so far. I should have lost more but I had one week where I did stay the same. I'm not gonna dwell on that though. It's normal to hit a plateau every now and then. I'm gonna stay positive and say that -19 lbs. is absolutely AMAZING! :D I'm really impressed with myself actually. I mean...don't get me wrong. If I was having to do this on my own right now I probably wouldn't be doing this well. Luckily...God sent someone my way that was willing to help me out! I'm super thankful for that. In the near future I will be doing this on my own. That kind of terrifies me...I'm not gonna lie. It also makes me want to prove that I can do this. David can't always be there to make me. I'm gonna have to learn how to do this without him. I will learn to do this on my own. Before he leaves we're going to make sure I'm fully prepared. Pre-made workouts and all. :D
So...I could still meet my goal of -30 lbs. by January 2nd but I would really have to do AMAZINGLY well at Christmas. I mean...I could do it. What better present to myself than to have truly reached my first small goal! That's what I'm hoping for anyways. Time will tell. Even if I don't reach my goal I'll end up getting really close. I'm ok with that. I mean...I want to be down 30 lbs. I really do. I just have to make it happen. So this week I'm going to be really focussed. No sweets. Well...I will be having at least one of Pam's special Christmas cookies. They're amazing and she only makes them a couple times a year. I'll just have to save up some calories for that one. :D No going over my calories! No way! It's totally not worth it. You only taste that food for like 5 minutes...but it can have long lasting effects on your life. Especially if you continually eat the wrong stuff. So the plan is to make it through this week and then it should be smoothe sailing from that point on. Awe...sailing. :D Anyways...hopefully I'll be down at least 5 or 6 lbs. next week...which would mean that I would be 4 lbs. away from my goal. Whooo hoooo!!!!! I SO GOT THIS!!! :D
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Changing Things Up...
So this post isn't really about my weight loss. This is about me...my walk...and a lesson that I believe the Lord is trying to teach me. He's been trying to teach me for a while...I just don't seem to listen. I'm a people person. I would much rather be with people than be alone. That's just the way I am...the way I've always been. I tend to put the people in my life before God. I don't think I necessarily do it intentionally...it just kind of happens. I also tend to rely on people like crazy! In all reality the One I should be relying on is the One I neglect the most. I've said this before and I'll say it again. I know all the right answers. I know exactly what I should be doing. I just don't do it. I don't have a reason why. I just don't. What can I say?! I'm a work in progress. We all are I suppose...and will continue to be. I want to be different. I will be different. I'm working on my physical health...now I just need to work on my spiritual health. :D The Lord is in the process of showing me that at any given time any one of the people that I rely on...or put before Him...can be taken away. Not necessarily in death, it could be...in a move...a change of careers...etc. He wants me to rely on Him and Him alone. People let you down. People move on. People change...including me! So what brought this on? Well...I realized today that I'm SO selfish! My friend/personal trainer, David, has decided to join the Navy. Was I supportive? Ish. I really just wanted to convince him that God didn't have that in mind for him. I know...I'm terrible! I didn't try to do that though. I was supportive-ish. :D Then I got really sad. Thinking about it really happening really started to bother me. Then you ask yourself why? BECAUSE I'M A HORRIBLE...TERRIBLE...SELFISH PERSON! He's a new friend. He's my trainer. He's about to be my roommate. I mean...I rely on him. How am I going to lose weight without him? How can I workout without him? I'm definitely going to miss him like crazy! Then I realize that I'm being a bit dramatic. It's not all about me! I know I like to think that it is...but it SO isn't. It's all about Him...bringing glory and honor to the name above all names...Jesus Christ! I need to give up my "control". I know that. I've known for a while now. I think that's part of this lesson the Lord is trying to teach me through this. So...I'm listening. I totally and completely support David in his decision and I'm SUPER excited for him and this journey he's about to begin. Yes, I can lose weight on my own. Yes, I can workout on my own. I know what to do. I've been doing it for a month now. I would've eventually had to start doing this on my own anyways...it's just going to be sooner than I'd hoped. It's not like David is leaving tomorrow. I'll still have time with him to train...to hang out...etc. I just need to be sure to focus while we're working out so that when he does leave I'll be ready. I want to continue this journey that I began one month ago today. :D One month ago today was my first workout. That's crazy! -16 lbs. later...here I am. I'm more motivated now than ever and I actually look forward to working out. I never thought that would be possible. For real. God is doing some amazing things in my life...and I know He's no where near being finished! I most definitely serve an AMAZING God!
I CAN DO THIS! :D WITH GOD ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! I WILL BE A SUCCESS!
Monday, December 14, 2009
READY TO BE A SUCCESS!!! :D
I'm really prepared to be successful this week. I went to the store last night and loaded up on low calorie food...that I actually like. Eating things you like is SO important. I mean...do you really think you're going to choose to eat something you don't like over something you do? NO WAY! You're just setting yourself up for disappointment. So...I'm prepared. :D
Last night I purchased the following:
*Cheese - 70 calories - I just can't live without it.
*Sugar Free Pudding - 60 calories - When I'm in the mood for something sweet this really helps! Plus, I bring one with me if I know there will be cake where I'm heading...that way I don't feel left out. :D
*Sugar Free Jello - 10 calories - I don't think I have to say much else...it's only 10 calories! That's pretty amazing! For real.
*Turkey - 6 slices = 50 calories
*100 Calorie Popcorn - You get a LARGE amount of popcorn for only 100 calories. It's much more filling than any other 100 calorie item.
*1 Gallon of water - I'm not getting my water in. The goal is to drink 1/2 gallon per day. Hopefully I'll be able to achieve that today! Actually, I'm almost there!! :D
*Gala apples - 80 calories-ish - These are my FAVORITE!!
*No Sugar Added Mandarin Oranges - 40 calories
*No Sugar Added Peaches - 30 calories
Ok...so on any given day I can have 1,750 calories. I've started writing everything down and keeping up with how many I have left. It's amazing the difference it makes. Seriously. So far I've consumed 750 calories today. That includes breakfast, a snack, and lunch. I have 1,000 calories remaining for dinner and a snack if I want one. I can assure you I won't be going over those calories today! I also plan to walk tonight. As soon as I get off work I'm headed to the church to do so! :D I will be successful this week and in the coming weeks and months!! I'm only 14 lbs. away from reaching my first small goal. Eeeeep! That's so exciting! I can't wait!!!!!!
I SO GOT THIS!!!
Last night I purchased the following:
*Cheese - 70 calories - I just can't live without it.
*Sugar Free Pudding - 60 calories - When I'm in the mood for something sweet this really helps! Plus, I bring one with me if I know there will be cake where I'm heading...that way I don't feel left out. :D
*Sugar Free Jello - 10 calories - I don't think I have to say much else...it's only 10 calories! That's pretty amazing! For real.
*Turkey - 6 slices = 50 calories
*100 Calorie Popcorn - You get a LARGE amount of popcorn for only 100 calories. It's much more filling than any other 100 calorie item.
*1 Gallon of water - I'm not getting my water in. The goal is to drink 1/2 gallon per day. Hopefully I'll be able to achieve that today! Actually, I'm almost there!! :D
*Gala apples - 80 calories-ish - These are my FAVORITE!!
*No Sugar Added Mandarin Oranges - 40 calories
*No Sugar Added Peaches - 30 calories
Ok...so on any given day I can have 1,750 calories. I've started writing everything down and keeping up with how many I have left. It's amazing the difference it makes. Seriously. So far I've consumed 750 calories today. That includes breakfast, a snack, and lunch. I have 1,000 calories remaining for dinner and a snack if I want one. I can assure you I won't be going over those calories today! I also plan to walk tonight. As soon as I get off work I'm headed to the church to do so! :D I will be successful this week and in the coming weeks and months!! I'm only 14 lbs. away from reaching my first small goal. Eeeeep! That's so exciting! I can't wait!!!!!!
I SO GOT THIS!!!
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Good News Indeed!
-16 lbs and counting!! Whoo hoooooo!! :D
This week was a bit challenging. I had 2 Christmas parties and I went over my calories twice. No one said it would be easy. It's not...but it's most definitely getting better...easier. Today's workout wasn't terrible. I actually felt great immediately afterward. Usually I feel like death for at least 5-10 minutes after a workout.
I did accomplish one of my goals for the week! I walked 4 days...that's pretty AMAZING. I still need to work on the water. It's a work in progress. I'm sure I'll learn to love it just as much as I'll love exercise...it's just going to take time.
I'm going to the store tonight. I need to re-stock my healthy stuff. That was part of the problem last week. I just didn't make time to go to the store and purchase what I needed. If I would've had healthy things on hand I wouldn't have chosen the things I had to eat last week. I also think it would be a good idea for me to NOT eat anything that I can't get the nutritional information on. I mean...guessing is almost never accurate. Most places have their nutritional information listed on the internet so that does make it easier. I just have to say no to lunches that are brought in by reps from places that don't list their nutrition. I think that will make a huge difference!
I'm only 14 lbs. away from reaching my first small goal! I'm SUPER excited about that!!
This week was a bit challenging. I had 2 Christmas parties and I went over my calories twice. No one said it would be easy. It's not...but it's most definitely getting better...easier. Today's workout wasn't terrible. I actually felt great immediately afterward. Usually I feel like death for at least 5-10 minutes after a workout.
I did accomplish one of my goals for the week! I walked 4 days...that's pretty AMAZING. I still need to work on the water. It's a work in progress. I'm sure I'll learn to love it just as much as I'll love exercise...it's just going to take time.
I'm going to the store tonight. I need to re-stock my healthy stuff. That was part of the problem last week. I just didn't make time to go to the store and purchase what I needed. If I would've had healthy things on hand I wouldn't have chosen the things I had to eat last week. I also think it would be a good idea for me to NOT eat anything that I can't get the nutritional information on. I mean...guessing is almost never accurate. Most places have their nutritional information listed on the internet so that does make it easier. I just have to say no to lunches that are brought in by reps from places that don't list their nutrition. I think that will make a huge difference!
I'm only 14 lbs. away from reaching my first small goal! I'm SUPER excited about that!!
Friday, December 11, 2009
The Christmas Parties Have Begun...
Well...tonight was my first Christmas party and let me just say...I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!!! It definitely is a time of year that makes me happy. It's the one time when I'm all about making others smile. I mean...I try to do that all year but especially this time of year! It's taken me a long time to really believe that to give is way better than to receive. Don't get me wrong...I love presents just as much as the next person but to know that you made someone's day or made them feel just a little special by giving them a gift...I think that's kind of amazing! :D What I don't think is amazing is the amount of food that is being delivered to my office. I mean it's seriously ridiculous! To be honest, I really have a hard time walking away. I haven't done too badly this week but yesterday they delivered 6 tins of chocolate covered nuts! I want to put up signs that say, "CAN'T YOU SEE WE ARE ALL FAT?! SEND US SOME FRUIT PLEASE!". You know...I wouldn't have a problem with my weight if food wasn't so good! Haha. If it tasted like dirt then I could most definitely walk away without a problem. My co-workers have learned that if they tell me it's not great then that makes it SO much easier for me. Most of the time they aren't telling the truth but that's ok!! Lie to me!! Tell me it's nasty! I don't need to hear how great it is. That just makes it that much more difficult. Lots of people are looking out for me and holding me accountable. It really makes a difference. I don't need you to stand by and watch me make a mistake. SLAP MY HAND! :D I won't get mad...not for long anyways. That's what I need right now....someone to tell me NO.
So...last week I didn't lose any weight. Boo. I was SO disappointed but I know that happens on occasion. David decided that I should be keeping a food journal. So this week I've been writing down everything I eat and that is making me keep up with my calories. Writing it down is annoying but it makes you realize what you're consuming instead of just guessing at how many you might have left. I did go over my calories twice but I don't think I did that bad....I could've done better though. :( I have to learn that it's not worth it. Eating what I want isn't worth it if I'm not able to lose weight while doing so. I know every now and then there will be a time when I can and will eat what is offered but I shouldn't be doing it now. It's too early to be weak. I need to continue to be disciplined. In control. This week started with that as my reality check. I had to improve in two areas this week. I needed to walk more and drink more water. I don't know why the water is such a big deal for me...but it is. I probably don't drink 64oz of any beverage in a day...let alone it just be water. I haven't had any water at all today. I KNOW THAT'S TERRIBLE!! See...I'm the girl that knows all the answers. I know what I should be doing...I know what's important but for some reason I don't do it. Well...I didn't until now. My health is important to me now. It has nothing to do with a guy and everything to do with me! :D It's not going to be easy all the time but it will get easier. Once all the sweets stop arriving at work I'll be just fine! Until then it's going to be a struggle. A struggle I plan on being strong enough to get through!!
Monday, November 30, 2009
-13 lbs. and counting!!
Ok...so as of yesterday I've lost 13 lbs. Whoo hoo! I'm super excited! :D
The goal this week is to WALK MORE!!! I have a crazy week ahead of me and I don't know if that's possible but we'll see.
The past 2 workouts haven't been terrible but I've been very whiney. David even said at one point yesterday, "Ooh, Jamie's getting mad". I still hate to exercise....obviously. I complain the whole time...poor David...but afterward I'm in the greatest mood. Maybe because it's over. Haha. It's just 'cause I'm so lazy. If I hadn't let myself get this way to begin with then I'm sure the whole working out thing wouldn't be such a problem. It's so easy to put the weight on and SUPER difficult to get it off. It's going to be SO worth it though. I mean...if I'm this excited about -13 lbs. then can you imagine how I'm going to react when I hit -50 lbs.? or even -100 lbs.?!!! We did set a small goal to begin with. I think that's the best way to do it...that way you don't get disappointed because you're looking at the BIG picture. You should totally focus on a small goal instead and when you reach that...just set another one! :D So my small goal is -30 lbs. before January 2nd. I'm 17 lbs. away right now. I'm SO gonna meet that goal!! I CAN'T WAIT!!
Oh, and let me just say...
I was in control on Thanksgiving!! This is the first time in a long time that I didn't eat until I was sick. I know that's sad...but hey...it's an IMPROVEMENT!! I was so proud of myself that day. It's getting easier to say no. I'm learning to like the healthier things. That's also an improvement. This isn't a diet. It's a change of lifestyle. It has to be permanent or I'll just put the weight back on. So...you learn to deal. I've learned to love apples! Gala apples, actually. I ate butter beans on Thanksgiving. I don't eat butter beans. I don't eat hardly any beans....but I actually liked them. CRAZY!!! :D Don't be afraid to try new things. You never know what you're going to like!
It's going to be a crazy week! I can't wait to see my results!! :D
The goal this week is to WALK MORE!!! I have a crazy week ahead of me and I don't know if that's possible but we'll see.
The past 2 workouts haven't been terrible but I've been very whiney. David even said at one point yesterday, "Ooh, Jamie's getting mad". I still hate to exercise....obviously. I complain the whole time...poor David...but afterward I'm in the greatest mood. Maybe because it's over. Haha. It's just 'cause I'm so lazy. If I hadn't let myself get this way to begin with then I'm sure the whole working out thing wouldn't be such a problem. It's so easy to put the weight on and SUPER difficult to get it off. It's going to be SO worth it though. I mean...if I'm this excited about -13 lbs. then can you imagine how I'm going to react when I hit -50 lbs.? or even -100 lbs.?!!! We did set a small goal to begin with. I think that's the best way to do it...that way you don't get disappointed because you're looking at the BIG picture. You should totally focus on a small goal instead and when you reach that...just set another one! :D So my small goal is -30 lbs. before January 2nd. I'm 17 lbs. away right now. I'm SO gonna meet that goal!! I CAN'T WAIT!!
Oh, and let me just say...
I was in control on Thanksgiving!! This is the first time in a long time that I didn't eat until I was sick. I know that's sad...but hey...it's an IMPROVEMENT!! I was so proud of myself that day. It's getting easier to say no. I'm learning to like the healthier things. That's also an improvement. This isn't a diet. It's a change of lifestyle. It has to be permanent or I'll just put the weight back on. So...you learn to deal. I've learned to love apples! Gala apples, actually. I ate butter beans on Thanksgiving. I don't eat butter beans. I don't eat hardly any beans....but I actually liked them. CRAZY!!! :D Don't be afraid to try new things. You never know what you're going to like!
It's going to be a crazy week! I can't wait to see my results!! :D
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
- 9 lbs. and counting!!
So far I've lost 9 lbs. It's SUPER exciting and kind of disappointing at the same time. Yes, I'm crazy. I just feel like I should've lost more. My problem is I keep looking at the entire amount that I need to lose instead of focusing on the smaller goal that I've set. I think that's a common mistake we all make. I also wasn't focused last week like I should've been. We had to miss a session. I didn't walk like I should have...etc. Yes...things happen. Life can get crazy at any moment. THOSE ARE JUST EXCUSES! My health and my weightloss should be a priority. I should be walking no matter what. This week will SO be different!
9 lbs. in 2 weeks is AMAZING! I should be proud...I am proud! :D Go me!
My trainer seems to think I can be at my goal weight in 6-7 months. If I'm serious...stick with the program and do all of the exercise then I do believe that's possible. To think that this time next year I will look like a totally different person is CRAZY! I can't wait to be healthy! Seriously. I'm super excited. I will be able to run! Whoo hoo!!!
I was not prepared for our session tonight. For real. I felt like I was exhausted way too soon. I complained like crazy and I hurt. I don't want to be the person that always says, "I can't!". I CAN DO THIS! It's not going to be pretty...obviously. :D It's not going to be easy...for real. It's not going to be fun all the time...but when you start to see results it's totally worth it! Every sore muscle and exercise you had to do...even the embarassing ones...become SO worth it! One day I will like exercise! When that day comes it will most definitely be a miracle. :D I do believe it's possible. It will happen. I just don't know when. I hope it happens soon!!
Thanksgiving should be interesting! I have to be strong. There is no reason to go overboard. It would jeopardize all the work we're doing. I can't let that happen. It's just another day...full of temptations. I can do this! I can get through just one day!!
9 lbs. in 2 weeks is AMAZING! I should be proud...I am proud! :D Go me!
My trainer seems to think I can be at my goal weight in 6-7 months. If I'm serious...stick with the program and do all of the exercise then I do believe that's possible. To think that this time next year I will look like a totally different person is CRAZY! I can't wait to be healthy! Seriously. I'm super excited. I will be able to run! Whoo hoo!!!
I was not prepared for our session tonight. For real. I felt like I was exhausted way too soon. I complained like crazy and I hurt. I don't want to be the person that always says, "I can't!". I CAN DO THIS! It's not going to be pretty...obviously. :D It's not going to be easy...for real. It's not going to be fun all the time...but when you start to see results it's totally worth it! Every sore muscle and exercise you had to do...even the embarassing ones...become SO worth it! One day I will like exercise! When that day comes it will most definitely be a miracle. :D I do believe it's possible. It will happen. I just don't know when. I hope it happens soon!!
Thanksgiving should be interesting! I have to be strong. There is no reason to go overboard. It would jeopardize all the work we're doing. I can't let that happen. It's just another day...full of temptations. I can do this! I can get through just one day!!
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Now that's what I'm talkin' about!
2nd workout...AMAZING! It was over before I knew it was time to be over. I love that!! It's getting easier. Maybe in another month or so I won't HATE exercise. It's definitely better if you have someone with you that can make it fun and push you to keep going.
So I definitely went to Wal-Mart all sweaty and beautiful after my workout. I need to manage my time better but there have been some crazy things going on lately so this is the first chance I've had to go and I knew if I waited I wouldn't go at all.
I purchased the following:
Bananas - I eat one every morning at breakfast. They are SO my favorite fruit.
Apples - I never eat these and I need to add more fruit to my diet.
Cheese - a low calorie snack
Yogurt - I found that a lot of yogurt is 100 calories or more and I think that's ridiculous! I found this Light & Fit that is only 60 calories. I think that's pretty reasonable. I just can't give up 100 calories for some yogurt. NO WAY!!
100 Calorie English Muffins - These have become an every day thing as well. They are SO good when toasted and crispy...topped with a banana. No...it's not gross. Don't knock it til you try it!
Sugar Free Jello - 10 calories...need I say more. I mean that is AMAZING!!
Sugar Free Pudding - I have a sweet tooth and these are only 60 calories. I think they'll do the trick!
Time to get a little serious...
For most people the weight is a psychological thing. I know it straight up is for me. I'm sure I'll deal with that eventually. I don't want to but it's necessary. I've been going through some stuff this week that a few weeks ago would probably cause me to eat until I get sick. When I felt the urge I immediately emailed my trainer. While writing him the email I realized that my niece is one of the reasons I need to change my life....not eat. She's going to get out of the hospital and that beautiful new born little girl is going to be AMAZING! She's perfect just the way she is and we will love her no matter what happens. Food is not going to fix anything. It's what we are to use to survive. It's a source of energy. That's all it should be. So...I chose not to get off track and stick with it. I shouldn't be turning to food when something goes wrong in my life...I should be turning to the one who can fix it. If I would just lean on Jesus in the good times and in the bad I wouldn't think that I needed to turn to food at all. It's definitely going to be a long journey...but I'm ready for it. I'm ready for this lifestyle change. It's time. I'm in this for the long haul! I'm most definitely going to finish this race and I can't wait to get to the finish line! :D
Monday, November 16, 2009
No tears...YET!
The first week I lost 5.4 lbs. That's without any exercise. I'm hoping for a bigger number this week!!
One of my co-workers told me I was being so strong and disciplined. I SO AM! I'm pretty impressed with myself so far. I told her that it helps that I'm accountable to someone. I answer to my trainer. He is taking the time out of his day to help me...so I feel like I owe it to him to stick to the program. I don't want him to feel like he's wasting his time. So I'll continue to do my best to stick with it!
The following was my menu for today:
Snack: Fruit and nut bar
Lunch: 6-inch Oven Roasted Chicken Breast on Wheat
Snack: 100 Calorie English Muffin w/ Banana
Snack: Fruit and nut bar
Dinner: Chick Fil A - Chicken sandwich and medium fries
Yes this is all included in my calorie count and I think I had 100 calories left over. :D Don't judge!
So...today was the big day! The day of the first workout.
Now that I'm sitting here and I can breathe it doesn't seem so bad. When I stand up I realize...YES IT WAS THAT BAD! :D I think I would've been ok if David hadn't tried to kill me with his "fitness assessment". It began with the lovely 3 minute step test. I truly hate the step test. For real. I felt like I was going to die. Then he had me do some other exercises that test my balance and such. I can't remember everything we did though. I'm trying to block that from my mind! :D
Once the assessment was completed I was thinking, "Ok...great first day!" Then he informed me that we were going to start the workout now. What?! Are you kidding? I thought that was the workout. WRONG!
So the workout begins. We start off with a 5 minute walk. Not bad...but I am terribly out of shape...so I was definitely out of breath. We did some things with resistance bands. Then the dreadful aerobic step. I have to say...the aerobic step has become my least favorite thing ever. I did 3 different things w/ the step and hated them all. I did survive....not without complaining. At least that was entertaining. We should've recorded the whole thing because it was quite humorous. What I thought was complaining my trainer found hilarious! Which made me laugh as well. It was...fun. I feel great! Now I truly know that I can do this! I think we're going to make a great team. He pushed me and I was somewhat cooperative. I do remember saying that I had reached my maximum heart rate hoping he would let me quit. It didn't work. I'm glad it didn't. I need to be pushed to my limit. I need to see that I'm not going to fail. I can't. I won't. So...I'd say today was a GREAT first day!
Tomorrow is another workout day!! Hmm...will I survive?! YES I WILL!!
One of my co-workers told me I was being so strong and disciplined. I SO AM! I'm pretty impressed with myself so far. I told her that it helps that I'm accountable to someone. I answer to my trainer. He is taking the time out of his day to help me...so I feel like I owe it to him to stick to the program. I don't want him to feel like he's wasting his time. So I'll continue to do my best to stick with it!
The following was my menu for today:
Snack: Fruit and nut bar
Lunch: 6-inch Oven Roasted Chicken Breast on Wheat
Snack: 100 Calorie English Muffin w/ Banana
Snack: Fruit and nut bar
Dinner: Chick Fil A - Chicken sandwich and medium fries
Yes this is all included in my calorie count and I think I had 100 calories left over. :D Don't judge!
So...today was the big day! The day of the first workout.
Now that I'm sitting here and I can breathe it doesn't seem so bad. When I stand up I realize...YES IT WAS THAT BAD! :D I think I would've been ok if David hadn't tried to kill me with his "fitness assessment". It began with the lovely 3 minute step test. I truly hate the step test. For real. I felt like I was going to die. Then he had me do some other exercises that test my balance and such. I can't remember everything we did though. I'm trying to block that from my mind! :D
Once the assessment was completed I was thinking, "Ok...great first day!" Then he informed me that we were going to start the workout now. What?! Are you kidding? I thought that was the workout. WRONG!
So the workout begins. We start off with a 5 minute walk. Not bad...but I am terribly out of shape...so I was definitely out of breath. We did some things with resistance bands. Then the dreadful aerobic step. I have to say...the aerobic step has become my least favorite thing ever. I did 3 different things w/ the step and hated them all. I did survive....not without complaining. At least that was entertaining. We should've recorded the whole thing because it was quite humorous. What I thought was complaining my trainer found hilarious! Which made me laugh as well. It was...fun. I feel great! Now I truly know that I can do this! I think we're going to make a great team. He pushed me and I was somewhat cooperative. I do remember saying that I had reached my maximum heart rate hoping he would let me quit. It didn't work. I'm glad it didn't. I need to be pushed to my limit. I need to see that I'm not going to fail. I can't. I won't. So...I'd say today was a GREAT first day!
Tomorrow is another workout day!! Hmm...will I survive?! YES I WILL!!
Saturday, November 14, 2009
This Weekend...
Ok...so this weekend has been AMAZING! My day started with me making a very important decision about breakfast. The church doesn't have a toaster and my breakfast needed toasting to be done! No...it could not be microwaved. I needed it to be crispy. So...I was headed to Chick Fil A. It was healthier than what they were serving and I do LOVE it. Then all of a sudden I decided that it wasn't worth it. I'll just go to Wal-Mart and buy a toaster! So that's just what I did! Hahahaha! When I got back to the church everyone was like, "You bought a toaster?! Do you need a toaster?." No I don't need a toaster. Yes...I bought one. It was only $7 and that includes the tax! Greatest thing ever! It still makes me laugh. That's dedication baby!
So...this is what I've had today:
Breakfast: 100 calorie english muffin w/ banana
Snack: fruit and nut bar
Lunch: salad w/ grilled chicken
Snack: sliced turkey-This is always a good choice. It's usually 99% fat free and the brand I buy you can have 5 slices for only 45 calories.
Dinner: roll, a very small portion of mashed potatoes, 3 small baked chicken fingers, and a brownie :( I'm such a failure!
No...I'm not a failure...I'm human. It was one brownie and it's not going to be the end of the world. Tomorrow is another day! :D A day of success I say!
Less than 2 days until David starts trying to kill me...I mean help me lose weight! :D
So...this is what I've had today:
Breakfast: 100 calorie english muffin w/ banana
Snack: fruit and nut bar
Lunch: salad w/ grilled chicken
Snack: sliced turkey-This is always a good choice. It's usually 99% fat free and the brand I buy you can have 5 slices for only 45 calories.
Dinner: roll, a very small portion of mashed potatoes, 3 small baked chicken fingers, and a brownie :( I'm such a failure!
No...I'm not a failure...I'm human. It was one brownie and it's not going to be the end of the world. Tomorrow is another day! :D A day of success I say!
Less than 2 days until David starts trying to kill me...I mean help me lose weight! :D
Friday, November 13, 2009
I Call This Dedication...
I have done pretty well today!! Yay!
Breakfast: 100 calorie multi-grain english muffin and a banana
Lunch: a salad w/ fat free Zesty Italian Dressing and some chicken.
Dinner: Subway - Tonight I did have a foot long which I shouldn't have...but I was hungry! Subway has become my new best friend. It's probably one of the best choices you can make if you're going to eat out.
I'm still not drinking all of my water. I'm told that it's imperative that I do. Boo. I will do it though. That's my biggest struggle right now. The water. Really.
This weekend is definitely going to be a challenge. We're at the church all weekend with the youth and they are providing our food. So...I found out the menu ahead of time and found that they weren't serving anything healthy...AT ALL. Not one piece of fruit. Not one healthy vegetable. So...I had to bring my own. :D That's right...be proud! I am not eating what they eat. To be honest being good has been pretty easy so far but this is my first weekend and the weekends are SO gonna be my biggest challenge. I do have a confession to make. I did have one peanut m&m today. Yes, just one. Haha. I really haven't been craving sweets...yet. Just in case I do...I bought snacks that are sweet-ish. Like...fruit and nut bars and strawberry special k bars. They are really good! A friend told me to buy stuff I like. So far that's working. I figure if I just find stuff I really like then I'll be alright.
Hopefully this weekend will be just as easy as the rest of the week has been! Whether it is or not...I'm going to suffer through it...successfully!! I CAN DO THIS!!!!
Work outs begin in 3 days. I'm excited and very nervous! My life is about to change...FOREVER...and I'm never going to be this size again! :D
Breakfast: 100 calorie multi-grain english muffin and a banana
Lunch: a salad w/ fat free Zesty Italian Dressing and some chicken.
Dinner: Subway - Tonight I did have a foot long which I shouldn't have...but I was hungry! Subway has become my new best friend. It's probably one of the best choices you can make if you're going to eat out.
I'm still not drinking all of my water. I'm told that it's imperative that I do. Boo. I will do it though. That's my biggest struggle right now. The water. Really.
This weekend is definitely going to be a challenge. We're at the church all weekend with the youth and they are providing our food. So...I found out the menu ahead of time and found that they weren't serving anything healthy...AT ALL. Not one piece of fruit. Not one healthy vegetable. So...I had to bring my own. :D That's right...be proud! I am not eating what they eat. To be honest being good has been pretty easy so far but this is my first weekend and the weekends are SO gonna be my biggest challenge. I do have a confession to make. I did have one peanut m&m today. Yes, just one. Haha. I really haven't been craving sweets...yet. Just in case I do...I bought snacks that are sweet-ish. Like...fruit and nut bars and strawberry special k bars. They are really good! A friend told me to buy stuff I like. So far that's working. I figure if I just find stuff I really like then I'll be alright.
Hopefully this weekend will be just as easy as the rest of the week has been! Whether it is or not...I'm going to suffer through it...successfully!! I CAN DO THIS!!!!
Work outs begin in 3 days. I'm excited and very nervous! My life is about to change...FOREVER...and I'm never going to be this size again! :D
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
A New Beginning...Again!
So the title is most definitely fitting for this post. More than likely...just like me...you've done the whole "weight loss" thing over and over again. Promising yourself that this time would be different...only to fail just like the many times before and gain back all that you lost plus more! I've come to the point where I've had enough failure. It's time to be a success!!!!!
So...I'm going to say it...again...THIS TIME IS SO GONNA BE DIFFERENT!!
I do believe with the Lord, David, and whatever I can offer...that this time will be a success. It has to be. I know it's not going to be easy and I'm totally ok with that. That doesn't mean I won't be complaining. I'm sure I will...A LOT! This time something is different though. I've reached that point where I'm finally ready. I'm determined to follow through this time. We haven't started working out yet...that begins Monday. I'm hoping he doesn't kill me. I'm sure the post that follows will be VERY interesting. I have started making smarter choices in what I'm eating. Today I did have the most AMAZING salad EVER and I was full. The being full...that's the best part. To know that I can eat healthy and be satisfied is huge! I already have the support of co-workers and friends. This is also SUPER important. It makes the process so much more difficult if you don't have anyone "cheering" for you. I think my trainer (it's so weird to say that...David...my trainer) is going to be my biggest cheerleader and possibly my worst enemy all at the same time. To be honest...I think he's gonna rock. It's nice to know that he's willing to invest the time it's going to take to get me where I need to be. Workouts begin in 5 days. It's kind of scary...I'm not gonna lie. It's gonna be SO worth it though. Through the sweat...and more than likely...through the tears...I truly do believe that I CAN DO THIS!! It's going to be an amazing journey and I can't wait to see the end results! :D Hopefully...it will end with a black belt...eventually...maybe. Hmm...will the new year begin with me joining TKD?! I think I just might!
A new beginning. A new beginning indeed!
So...I'm going to say it...again...THIS TIME IS SO GONNA BE DIFFERENT!!
I do believe with the Lord, David, and whatever I can offer...that this time will be a success. It has to be. I know it's not going to be easy and I'm totally ok with that. That doesn't mean I won't be complaining. I'm sure I will...A LOT! This time something is different though. I've reached that point where I'm finally ready. I'm determined to follow through this time. We haven't started working out yet...that begins Monday. I'm hoping he doesn't kill me. I'm sure the post that follows will be VERY interesting. I have started making smarter choices in what I'm eating. Today I did have the most AMAZING salad EVER and I was full. The being full...that's the best part. To know that I can eat healthy and be satisfied is huge! I already have the support of co-workers and friends. This is also SUPER important. It makes the process so much more difficult if you don't have anyone "cheering" for you. I think my trainer (it's so weird to say that...David...my trainer) is going to be my biggest cheerleader and possibly my worst enemy all at the same time. To be honest...I think he's gonna rock. It's nice to know that he's willing to invest the time it's going to take to get me where I need to be. Workouts begin in 5 days. It's kind of scary...I'm not gonna lie. It's gonna be SO worth it though. Through the sweat...and more than likely...through the tears...I truly do believe that I CAN DO THIS!! It's going to be an amazing journey and I can't wait to see the end results! :D Hopefully...it will end with a black belt...eventually...maybe. Hmm...will the new year begin with me joining TKD?! I think I just might!
A new beginning. A new beginning indeed!
Monday, October 19, 2009
Lately...
Life is good! Really good. I am truly a blessed woman. I mean, really. I am. I have amazing friends...and God just keeps adding to the number of them daily. They're amazing. These people that He keeps placing in my path really...ROCK! :D I believe in complete honesty and so do they. I love that we can talk about anything without fear of what each other might think or say. We agree or we don't. No big deal. NO DRAMA!! I love that! I've spent way too many years involved with people that are nothing but drama queens and now things are SO much better. Wonderful actually!! Right now the only drama in my life comes from my family. That's something that I think will always be there. Good grief. These are the people that He chose for me to be linked to for a lifetime. There's a reason they are mine...my family...my blood. I don't always understand but that doesn't matter. I'm to love them even when it's not easy. They are to do the same for me. Lord knows I can be difficult at times. I'm getting better though. I know it's not all about me. My problem is that other people don't realize that it's not all about them either. Oh well. It's all good. Things could always be worse...for real, for real. So my goal for the week is to think POSITIVE!!! There's no reason for negativity and always a bright side to look on. I hope it works! :D
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Seriously?!
Ok...so last night someone decided it would be a terrific idea to bust out my driver's side rear window while my car was parked at the church. Really?! People were still inside the church when it happened! I really don't get it. Well...I get over it and decide that today I'm just going to replace the stupid thing because we'll never find out who did it and I just need to move on. So I call Glass Doctors and they come to my office and fix the window. Super easy right? I thought so until I get in my car and leave work. I look in my rear view mirror to check out the window and the rubber molding looks very strange. It's like it could fall off at any moment. I think nothing about it and continue on to dinner and then I get my dad to look at it. Sure enough the guy screwed it up today and it's not fitting right. GOOD GRIEF!!!!!! Is this really happening? So I called the Glass Doctors back and inform the woman on the phone of what has happened. She's going to get someone to call me in the morning. When I asked if I'm going to be charged for this she says she doesn't know. LET ME JUST SAY...I WILL NOT BE PAYING FOR THEM TO FIX SOMETHING THAT WASN'T BROKEN BEFORE THEY GOT A HOLD OF IT! I will try to be like Jesus when they call me tomorrow but I'm sure it's going to be difficult. I just keep saying to myself that being a jerk never gets anyone anywhere so I'm going to try to be the nicest person EVER! :D I hope that works in my favor.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
I know.
I know what I'm supposed to be doing. I know how I should live. I know that Jesus should be the most important thing in my life and that I should be in His Word like crazy. If I know these things then why don't I do them? Why is the only time that I open up the bible Sunday morning? It's not right. I know better. I want to be the woman He created me to be. I want to know without a doubt that what I'm doing is His will for my life. I want to be able to let go of the things that have hurt me in the past. I want to forgive. I know that's holding me back. I want to be different. I want to be real. I want people to see the Jesus in me before they see me at all. I've said all of these things before. Will it be different this time?
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