-13 lbs. and counting!!

Ok...so as of yesterday I've lost 13 lbs.  Whoo hoo!  I'm super excited!  :D


The goal this week is to WALK MORE!!!  I have a crazy week ahead of me and I don't know if that's possible but we'll see.


The past 2 workouts haven't been terrible but I've been very whiney.  David even said at one point yesterday, "Ooh, Jamie's getting mad".  I still hate to exercise....obviously.  I complain the whole time...poor David...but afterward I'm in the greatest mood.  Maybe because it's over.  Haha.  It's just 'cause I'm so lazy.  If I hadn't let myself get this way to begin with then I'm sure the whole working out thing wouldn't be such a problem.  It's so easy to put the weight on and SUPER difficult to get it off.  It's going to be SO worth it though.  I mean...if I'm this excited about -13 lbs. then can you imagine how I'm going to react when I hit -50 lbs.?  or even -100 lbs.?!!!  We did set a small goal to begin with.  I think that's the best way to do it...that way you don't get disappointed because you're looking at the BIG picture.  You should totally focus on a small goal instead and when you reach that...just set another one!  :D  So my small goal is -30 lbs. before January 2nd.  I'm 17 lbs. away right now.  I'm SO gonna meet that goal!! I CAN'T WAIT!!


Oh, and let me just say...
I was in control on Thanksgiving!!  This is the first time in a long time that I didn't eat until I was sick.  I know that's sad...but hey...it's an IMPROVEMENT!!  I was so proud of myself that day.  It's getting easier to say no.  I'm learning to like the healthier things.  That's also an improvement.  This isn't a diet.  It's a change of lifestyle.  It has to be permanent or I'll just put the weight back on.  So...you learn to deal.  I've learned to love apples!  Gala apples, actually.  I ate butter beans on Thanksgiving.  I don't eat butter beans.  I don't eat hardly any beans....but I actually liked them.  CRAZY!!!  :D  Don't be afraid to try new things.  You never know what you're going to like!


It's going to be a crazy week!  I can't wait to see my results!!  :D

- 9 lbs. and counting!!

So far I've lost 9 lbs.  It's SUPER exciting and kind of disappointing at the same time.  Yes, I'm crazy.  I just feel like I should've lost more.  My problem is I keep looking at the entire amount that I need to lose instead of focusing on the smaller goal that I've set.  I think that's a common mistake we all make.  I also wasn't focused last week like I should've been.  We had to miss a session.  I didn't walk like I should have...etc.  Yes...things happen.  Life can get crazy at any moment.  THOSE ARE JUST EXCUSES!  My health and my weightloss should be a priority.  I should be walking no matter what.  This week will SO be different!  


9 lbs. in 2 weeks is AMAZING!  I should be proud...I am proud!  :D  Go me!


My trainer seems to think I can be at my goal weight in 6-7 months.  If I'm serious...stick with the program and do all of the exercise then I do believe that's possible.  To think that this time next year I will look like a totally different person is CRAZY!  I can't wait to be healthy!  Seriously.  I'm super excited.  I will be able to run!  Whoo hoo!!!


I was not prepared for our session tonight.  For real.  I felt like I was exhausted way too soon.  I complained like crazy and I hurt.  I don't want to be the person that always says, "I can't!".  I CAN DO THIS!  It's not going to be pretty...obviously.  :D  It's not going to be easy...for real.  It's not going to be fun all the time...but when you start to see results it's totally worth it!  Every sore muscle and exercise you had to do...even the embarassing ones...become SO worth it!  One day I will like exercise!  When that day comes it will most definitely be a miracle.  :D  I do believe it's possible.  It will happen.  I just don't know when.  I hope it happens soon!!


Thanksgiving should be interesting!  I have to be strong.  There is no reason to go overboard.  It would jeopardize all the work we're doing.  I can't let that happen.  It's just another day...full of temptations.  I can do this!  I can get through just one day!!

Now that's what I'm talkin' about!

2nd workout...AMAZING!  It was over before I knew it was time to be over.  I love that!!  It's getting easier.  Maybe in another month or so I won't HATE exercise.  It's definitely better if you have someone with you that can make it fun and push you to keep going.

So I definitely went to Wal-Mart all sweaty and beautiful after my workout.  I need to manage my time better but there have been some crazy things going on lately so this is the first chance I've had to go and I knew if I waited I wouldn't go at all.

I purchased the following:

Bananas - I eat one every morning at breakfast.  They are SO my favorite fruit.

Apples - I never eat these and I need to add more fruit to my diet.

Cheese - a low calorie snack

Yogurt - I found that a lot of yogurt is 100 calories or more and I think that's ridiculous!  I found this Light & Fit that is only 60 calories.  I think that's pretty reasonable.  I just can't give up 100 calories for some yogurt.  NO WAY!!

100 Calorie English Muffins - These have become an every day thing as well.  They are SO good when toasted and crispy...topped with a banana.  No...it's not gross.  Don't knock it til you try it!

Sugar Free Jello - 10 calories...need I say more.  I mean that is AMAZING!!

Sugar Free Pudding - I have a sweet tooth and these are only 60 calories.  I think they'll do the trick!

Time to get a little serious...

For most people the weight is a psychological thing.  I know it straight up is for me.  I'm sure I'll deal with that eventually.  I don't want to but it's necessary.  I've been going through some stuff this week that a few weeks ago would probably cause me to eat until I get sick.  When I felt the urge I immediately emailed my trainer.  While writing him the email I realized that my niece is one of the reasons I need to change my life....not eat.  She's going to get out of the hospital and that beautiful new born little girl is going to be AMAZING!  She's perfect just the way she is and we will love her no matter what happens.  Food is not going to fix anything.  It's what we are to use to survive.  It's a source of energy.  That's all it should be.  So...I chose not to get off track and stick with it.  I shouldn't be turning to food when something goes wrong in my life...I should be turning to the one who can fix it.  If I would just lean on Jesus in the good times and in the bad I wouldn't think that I needed to turn to food at all.  It's definitely going to be a long journey...but I'm ready for it.  I'm ready for this lifestyle change.  It's time.  I'm in this for the long haul!  


I'm most definitely going to finish this race and I can't wait to get to the finish line!  :D

No tears...YET!

The first week I lost 5.4 lbs.  That's without any exercise.  I'm hoping for a bigger number this week!!


One of my co-workers told me I was being so strong and disciplined.  I SO AM!  I'm pretty impressed with myself so far.  I told her that it helps that I'm accountable to someone.  I answer to my trainer.  He is taking the time out of his day to help me...so I feel like I owe it to him to stick to the program.  I don't want him to feel like he's wasting his time.  So I'll continue to do my best to stick with it!

The following was my menu for today:
Snack:  Fruit and nut bar
Lunch:  6-inch Oven Roasted Chicken Breast on Wheat
Snack:  100 Calorie English Muffin w/ Banana
Snack:  Fruit and nut bar
Dinner:  Chick Fil A - Chicken sandwich and medium fries


Yes this is all included in my calorie count and I think I had 100 calories left over.  :D  Don't judge! 


So...today was the big day!  The day of the first workout.  
Now that I'm sitting here and I can breathe it doesn't seem so bad.  When I stand up I realize...YES IT WAS THAT BAD!  :D  I think I would've been ok if David hadn't tried to kill me with his "fitness assessment".  It began with the lovely 3 minute step test.  I truly hate the step test.  For real.  I felt like I was going to die.  Then he had me do some other exercises that test my balance and such.  I can't remember everything we did though.  I'm trying to block that from my mind!  :D 


Once the assessment was completed I was thinking, "Ok...great first day!"  Then he informed me that we were going to start the workout now.  What?!  Are you kidding?  I thought that was the workout.  WRONG!  


So the workout begins.  We start off with a 5 minute walk.  Not bad...but I am terribly out of shape...so I was definitely out of breath.  We did some things with resistance bands.  Then the dreadful aerobic step.  I have to say...the aerobic step has become my least favorite thing ever.  I did 3 different things w/ the step and hated them all.  I did survive....not without complaining.  At least that was entertaining.  We should've recorded the whole thing because it was quite humorous.  What I thought was complaining my trainer found hilarious!  Which made me laugh as well.  It was...fun.  I feel great!  Now I truly know that I can do this!  I think we're going to make a great team.  He pushed me and I was somewhat cooperative.  I do remember saying that I had reached my maximum heart rate hoping he would let me quit.  It didn't work.  I'm glad it didn't.  I need to be pushed to my limit.  I need to see that I'm not going to fail.  I can't.  I won't.  So...I'd say today was a GREAT first day!


Tomorrow is another workout day!!  Hmm...will I survive?!  YES I WILL!!

This Weekend...

Ok...so this weekend has been AMAZING!  My day started with me making a very important decision about breakfast.  The church doesn't have a toaster and my breakfast needed toasting to be done!  No...it could not be microwaved.  I needed it to be crispy.  So...I was headed to Chick Fil A.  It was healthier than what they were serving and I do LOVE it.  Then all of a sudden I decided that it wasn't worth it.  I'll just go to Wal-Mart and buy a toaster!  So that's just what I did!  Hahahaha!  When I got back to the church everyone was like, "You bought a toaster?!  Do you need a toaster?."  No I don't need a toaster.  Yes...I bought one.  It was only $7 and that includes the tax!  Greatest thing ever!  It still makes me laugh.  That's dedication baby!


So...this is what I've had today: 
Breakfast:  100 calorie english muffin w/ banana
Snack:  fruit and nut bar 
Lunch:  salad w/ grilled chicken
Snack:  sliced turkey-This is always a good choice.  It's usually 99% fat free and the brand I buy you can have 5 slices for only 45 calories.
Dinner:   roll, a very small portion of mashed potatoes, 3 small baked chicken fingers, and a brownie :(  I'm such a failure!


No...I'm not a failure...I'm human.  It was one brownie and it's not going to be the end of the world.  Tomorrow is another day!  :D  A day of success I say!

Less than 2 days until David starts trying to kill me...I mean help me lose weight!  :D

I Call This Dedication...

I have done pretty well today!!  Yay!
Breakfast:  100 calorie multi-grain english muffin and a banana  
Lunch:  a salad w/ fat free Zesty Italian Dressing and some chicken.  
Dinner:  Subway - Tonight I did have a foot long which I shouldn't have...but I was hungry!  Subway has become my new best friend.  It's probably one of the best choices you can make if you're going to eat out.


I'm still not drinking all of my water.  I'm told that it's imperative that I do.  Boo.  I will do it though.  That's my biggest struggle right now.  The water.  Really. 


This weekend is definitely going to be a challenge.  We're at the church all weekend with the youth and they are providing our food.  So...I found out the menu ahead of time and found that they weren't serving anything healthy...AT ALL.  Not one piece of fruit.  Not one healthy vegetable.  So...I had to bring my own.  :D  That's right...be proud!  I am not eating what they eat.  To be honest being good has been pretty easy so far but this is my first weekend and the weekends are SO gonna be my biggest challenge.  I do have a confession to make.  I did have one peanut m&m today.  Yes, just one.  Haha.  I really haven't been craving sweets...yet.  Just in case I do...I bought snacks that are sweet-ish.  Like...fruit and nut bars and strawberry special k bars.  They are really good!  A friend told me to buy stuff I like.  So far that's working.  I figure if I just find stuff I really like then I'll be alright.  


Hopefully this weekend will be just as easy as the rest of the week has been!  Whether it is or not...I'm going to suffer through it...successfully!!  I CAN DO THIS!!!!


Work outs begin in 3 days.  I'm excited and very nervous!  My life is about to change...FOREVER...and I'm never going to be this size again!  :D

A New Beginning...Again!

So the title is most definitely fitting for this post.  More than likely...just like me...you've done the whole "weight loss" thing over and over again.  Promising yourself that this time would be different...only to fail just like the many times before and gain back all that you lost plus more!  I've come to the point where I've had enough failure.  It's time to be a success!!!!!


So...I'm going to say it...again...THIS TIME IS SO GONNA BE DIFFERENT!!  


I do believe with the Lord, David, and whatever I can offer...that this time will be a success.  It has to be.  I know it's not going to be easy and I'm totally ok with that.  That doesn't mean I won't be complaining.  I'm sure I will...A LOT!  This time something is different though.  I've reached that point where I'm finally ready.  I'm determined to follow through this time.  We haven't started working out yet...that begins Monday.  I'm hoping he doesn't kill me.  I'm sure the post that follows will be VERY interesting.  I have started making smarter choices in what I'm eating.  Today I did have the most AMAZING salad EVER and I was full.  The being full...that's the best part.  To know that I can eat healthy and be satisfied is huge!  I already have the support of co-workers and friends.  This is also SUPER important.  It makes the process so much more difficult if you don't have anyone "cheering" for you.  I think my trainer (it's so weird to say that...David...my trainer) is going to be my biggest cheerleader and possibly my worst enemy all at the same time.  To be honest...I think he's gonna rock.  It's nice to know that he's willing to invest the time it's going to take to get me where I need to be.  Workouts begin in 5 days.  It's kind of scary...I'm not gonna lie.  It's gonna be SO worth it though.  Through the sweat...and more than likely...through the tears...I truly do believe that I CAN DO THIS!!  It's going to be an amazing journey and I can't wait to see the end results!  :D  Hopefully...it will end with a black belt...eventually...maybe.  Hmm...will the new year begin with me joining TKD?!  I think I just might!


A new beginning.  A new beginning indeed!