The Beginning.

These are some pictures from one of my favorite days since living with David and Audra.  Looking back these make me smile so much.  It was a very happy day!  We were hoping it would snow at least once so we could play in it but we never imagined it would really happen.  Especially since James had called for it a couple of times already and all we got was a "dusting".  So we hoped...but we didn't believe.  We left for work that morning wishing we'd all get to leave early.  Our wishes came true!  Yay!!!  Audra and Dave waited on me to get home so we could go play.  I felt like I was 5 years old all over again.  We had a snowball fight, built the most amazing snowman ever (his name was Bradley), and made snow angels.  It was SO much fun.  I've made lots of memories in this house.  Good ones.  Bad ones.  Funny ones.  Sad ones.  It's been amazing.  I'm going to miss it very much.  But - I know that God has a plan for me...for us.  His ways are higher than our ways.  And - His plans are perfect.  We just have to trust Him.  So...even though it will be sad when we move out in September I know that it is for the best.  I know and believe in my heart that better things are coming.  It was hard to see that reality a few weeks ago.  Now I'm clinging to it.  The best is yet to come.  I'm trusting in that!  I'm sure this won't be the last post regarding my amazing roommates.  So...get used to it!  I'll be posting pictures and sharing memories we've made together.  I count myself a blessed woman to know and have lived with these two.  I love them very much.  They've become family to me.  I'm going to miss them.  I'm going to miss this.  A lot.

When I Leave...

This is a song called When I Leave by JJ Heller.  It's completely amazing.  Enjoy!  :o)


Am I too busy chasing a temporary fortune
That my priorities get lost along the road
The seasons bring their moments
They linger for an instant
They never wait for you to pay the debts you owe

When I leave I want to leave a memory filled with love
The kind you don't forget
When I go I want to be known
As one who lived with no regrets

If life is like a flower
Am I doing all that's in my power
To leave a fragrance behind
It's time to count my blessings
Forget about my savings account for a while

I want them to say
What a glorious day
She had so much to gain
But she gave it away
And I want them to see something different in me
And that I'm going to be free

Some glad morning when this life is over
I'll fly away
To a home on God's celestial shore
I'll fly away
When I leave I want to leave a memory... 

Change. I hate it...but it's completely necessary.

A friend of mine looked at my pictures the other day and made this statement:  "Jamie...you're always looking up!"  This is usually true.  I am in love with clouds.  They are absolutely beautiful to me.  Especially when the sun is peeking through...because I feel like I can see heaven.  It's just something I've always loved.  I've taken hundreds of pictures of clouds.  It's completely ridiculous.  :o)  AND - I'm a pretty positive person for the most part.  I consider myself to be funny and I love laughter.  Laughter is one of my favorite things...EVER.  I do consider it to be the best medicine.  Especially for someone that is sad or upset about something.  Laughter can almost instantly cure that.  :o)  It's completely amazing.  Anyways...so the past couple of weeks I haven't been looking up.  I've been worried and afraid of what the future has in store for me.  I haven't been trusting that the Lord will work it all out or even thought that the direction I'm going in just might be His plan for me.  I've been completely selfish in my thinking.  ME, ME, ME, ME!  At some point I stopped looking up and started listening to the things the enemy was telling me.  Like...I'm worthless and unwanted.  The reason this is happening now is because my friend doesn't care about me anymore.  He doesn't want or need me in his life.  Blah, blah, blah!  LIES!  They're all lies.  I am choosing not to listen to the enemy anymore.  I'm not worthless!  I am wanted!  I am worth it!!  I know in the end we will have a better friendship.  I know in the end this will be a good thing.  For me...for everyone.  It's sad.  Yes.  But - that's okay.  This chapter is coming to and end.  But - a new one is going to begin!!  I believe very much that it's going to be better than the last.  I'll be happier.  More independent.  Free of debt.  This just might change my life forever.  For real.  I'm a little nervous...I'm not gonna lie.  BUT - I'm excited to see what the future has in store.  This change is good.  It has to be!  :o)  So I'm looking up.  It's just what I do.  It's what comes naturally to me.  It's what I need to do.  Looking up to the beauty of God's plan.  I want to walk in His ways...even when I don't completely understand them.  He knows what's best.  I trust Him.  He's in control here.  My life...my path...I'm in His hands.  Is there a better place to be?!  I don't think so.  No way!!  He's totally got this.  He knows what He's doing!  He's cool that way.  :o)  I have a feeling that this is going to be amazing.  For real.  It has to be!  I'm trusting that it will be.  I know it will be!!!!