2009...

This may be a week early...but that's ok!  :D  I don't mind!  Hahahaha! 


Well...I have to admit a LOT of pretty amazing things happened this year.  It will go down in the books as a year I'll never forget.  I had a lot of "firsts" this year.  That's probably what makes it so memorable.  


I brought 2009 in with new friends.  I met them in December and I think they're pretty amazing.  I see them just about every Thursday now.  :D  I drive to Mt. Olive and attend a service for 18+ on Thursdays.  I don't make it every week but I do try my best.  I went to the beach with them this summer and we had SO much fun!  I never get tired of meeting new people that's for sure!  


I also flew on a plane for the first time.  It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.  I have to admit...the first time we hit turbulence I thought we were going to die!  Haha!  We obviously didn't and from then on I kind of knew what to expect.  


I went out of the country for the first time EVER!  It was AMAZING.  We went to Costa Rica on a mission trip.  We were there for 7 days and I can't wait to go back in 2010.  Missions is something I would like to continue to be very involved with.  


I went on my first cruise this year.  It was SO much fun!  I was the person that never thought I would do something like that.  The thought of being out in the middle of the ocean with no land around kind of terrified me.  It wasn't scary at all.  It was actually one of the coolest things that I've ever experienced.  I loved being able to go out on the deck and just look at the ocean for hours and know that nothing else was around.  To think...God created all of this.  AMAZING!


I found some things out about myself this year.  Some of these things I have known and just never decided to do anything about it.  Some are kind of...well...new.  :D  I realized that I'm selfish...more selfish than I'd thought...and I'm working on it.  I'm very opinionated and not afraid to tell people what I think...but found that no matter what I will LOVE in any given situation.  I'll let you know how I feel about whatever it might be but will LOVE no matter what.  That's HUGE!  I'm completely honest almost all of the time.  Some people love that and some people just can't handle it.  I prefer honesty...obviously some don't.  I realized that I rely on people to much.  I'm a people person...I don't know if that will ever change.  What will change is who I place my total trust in.  It shouldn't shatter my world when I hear someone might move out of state or to another country or whatever.  I mean...being sad is definitely ok...but wondering what the heck I'm gonna do without them...isn't.  There are these things called cell phones...and email...ooh...and let's go old school and say letters.  If a person is that important to you then you will find a way to keep in touch.  Period.  It doesn't have to be the end of the world.  So...it isn't.  :D  I can be happy for them!  My trust is in the Lord.  He has my whole world in His hands.  He has a perfect plan for me.  I'm completely ok with that. 


I met David...randomly...this year.  He became a friend....then my personal trainer....now he's one of my roommates.  It's amazing how God works.  The path He's prepared for us is SO cool.  I obviously moved out of my house.  For the first time in my life I don't live with my dad.  I'm super excited about that!  I also realized this year that I was tired of being unhealthy.  I was offered help...and for some reason...this time...I decided that I'd take it.  I will always be grateful for what David has done for me.  He promised that he wouldn't give up on me but I couldn't give up on myself either.  I think each of us has kept that promise so far.  When he leaves I'll really have to keep that promise.  I can't give up.  I won't.  :D  I can't give him ALL the credit though.  God placed us in each other's path...He also gave me the ability to get  through this...to decide that it was time.  I never thought I'd be successful in weightloss.  NEVER.  I think that's why I never stuck with it before.  I mean...I'd try and it would last a couple of months and then I'd quit.  I'd find some excuse...it was the summer...it was my birthday...someone's birthday...anyone's birthday.  Not this time.  I've realized that it's not worth it.  Not anymore.  I don't want to be this way anymore.  I want to be healthy and I'm not doing this for anyone but me.  :D  I think that's very important.  If you're doing it for anyone but you...then what happens when whoever you're doing it for isn't there anymore...or they decide to give up on you?!  That's when you give up because the reason for doing it is gone.  That's why my reason for making this decision is ME!  i want to be happy with myself when I look in the mirror.  I want to be satisfied with what I see.  I don't want to have to worry that my stomach is hanging over my pants or my shirt has "all of a sudden" become too tight.  I want to know that I'm continuing to workout.  With or without David...I will do this.  It's probably not going to be easy when he first leaves but it will get easier.  I will find what works for me and I will do it to the best of my ability.  At this point I've lost 20 lbs.!!  Merry Christmas to me!  :D  I can do this...I will do this!!


2009 has been one AMAZING year!  I can't wait to see what 2010 has in store!  :D