Well...tonight was my first Christmas party and let me just say...I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!!! It definitely is a time of year that makes me happy. It's the one time when I'm all about making others smile. I mean...I try to do that all year but especially this time of year! It's taken me a long time to really believe that to give is way better than to receive. Don't get me wrong...I love presents just as much as the next person but to know that you made someone's day or made them feel just a little special by giving them a gift...I think that's kind of amazing! :D What I don't think is amazing is the amount of food that is being delivered to my office. I mean it's seriously ridiculous! To be honest, I really have a hard time walking away. I haven't done too badly this week but yesterday they delivered 6 tins of chocolate covered nuts! I want to put up signs that say, "CAN'T YOU SEE WE ARE ALL FAT?! SEND US SOME FRUIT PLEASE!". You know...I wouldn't have a problem with my weight if food wasn't so good! Haha. If it tasted like dirt then I could most definitely walk away without a problem. My co-workers have learned that if they tell me it's not great then that makes it SO much easier for me. Most of the time they aren't telling the truth but that's ok!! Lie to me!! Tell me it's nasty! I don't need to hear how great it is. That just makes it that much more difficult. Lots of people are looking out for me and holding me accountable. It really makes a difference. I don't need you to stand by and watch me make a mistake. SLAP MY HAND! :D I won't get mad...not for long anyways. That's what I need right now....someone to tell me NO.
So...last week I didn't lose any weight. Boo. I was SO disappointed but I know that happens on occasion. David decided that I should be keeping a food journal. So this week I've been writing down everything I eat and that is making me keep up with my calories. Writing it down is annoying but it makes you realize what you're consuming instead of just guessing at how many you might have left. I did go over my calories twice but I don't think I did that bad....I could've done better though. :( I have to learn that it's not worth it. Eating what I want isn't worth it if I'm not able to lose weight while doing so. I know every now and then there will be a time when I can and will eat what is offered but I shouldn't be doing it now. It's too early to be weak. I need to continue to be disciplined. In control. This week started with that as my reality check. I had to improve in two areas this week. I needed to walk more and drink more water. I don't know why the water is such a big deal for me...but it is. I probably don't drink 64oz of any beverage in a day...let alone it just be water. I haven't had any water at all today. I KNOW THAT'S TERRIBLE!! See...I'm the girl that knows all the answers. I know what I should be doing...I know what's important but for some reason I don't do it. Well...I didn't until now. My health is important to me now. It has nothing to do with a guy and everything to do with me! :D It's not going to be easy all the time but it will get easier. Once all the sweets stop arriving at work I'll be just fine! Until then it's going to be a struggle. A struggle I plan on being strong enough to get through!!
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