So this post isn't really about my weight loss. This is about me...my walk...and a lesson that I believe the Lord is trying to teach me. He's been trying to teach me for a while...I just don't seem to listen. I'm a people person. I would much rather be with people than be alone. That's just the way I am...the way I've always been. I tend to put the people in my life before God. I don't think I necessarily do it intentionally...it just kind of happens. I also tend to rely on people like crazy! In all reality the One I should be relying on is the One I neglect the most. I've said this before and I'll say it again. I know all the right answers. I know exactly what I should be doing. I just don't do it. I don't have a reason why. I just don't. What can I say?! I'm a work in progress. We all are I suppose...and will continue to be. I want to be different. I will be different. I'm working on my physical health...now I just need to work on my spiritual health. :D The Lord is in the process of showing me that at any given time any one of the people that I rely on...or put before Him...can be taken away. Not necessarily in death, it could be...in a move...a change of careers...etc. He wants me to rely on Him and Him alone. People let you down. People move on. People change...including me! So what brought this on? Well...I realized today that I'm SO selfish! My friend/personal trainer, David, has decided to join the Navy. Was I supportive? Ish. I really just wanted to convince him that God didn't have that in mind for him. I know...I'm terrible! I didn't try to do that though. I was supportive-ish. :D Then I got really sad. Thinking about it really happening really started to bother me. Then you ask yourself why? BECAUSE I'M A HORRIBLE...TERRIBLE...SELFISH PERSON! He's a new friend. He's my trainer. He's about to be my roommate. I mean...I rely on him. How am I going to lose weight without him? How can I workout without him? I'm definitely going to miss him like crazy! Then I realize that I'm being a bit dramatic. It's not all about me! I know I like to think that it is...but it SO isn't. It's all about Him...bringing glory and honor to the name above all names...Jesus Christ! I need to give up my "control". I know that. I've known for a while now. I think that's part of this lesson the Lord is trying to teach me through this. So...I'm listening. I totally and completely support David in his decision and I'm SUPER excited for him and this journey he's about to begin. Yes, I can lose weight on my own. Yes, I can workout on my own. I know what to do. I've been doing it for a month now. I would've eventually had to start doing this on my own anyways...it's just going to be sooner than I'd hoped. It's not like David is leaving tomorrow. I'll still have time with him to train...to hang out...etc. I just need to be sure to focus while we're working out so that when he does leave I'll be ready. I want to continue this journey that I began one month ago today. :D One month ago today was my first workout. That's crazy! -16 lbs. later...here I am. I'm more motivated now than ever and I actually look forward to working out. I never thought that would be possible. For real. God is doing some amazing things in my life...and I know He's no where near being finished! I most definitely serve an AMAZING God!
I CAN DO THIS! :D WITH GOD ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! I WILL BE A SUCCESS!
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