Times, they are a changin'...

"Cling to the Vine - that's all you have, really. I'll be spitting in your face for the rest of my life and you'll be spitting in mine. Thank God we aren't meant to save each other or we'd be bound for hell."  ~ David Charles Johnson

Man.  So much has happened since my last post.  I was in a very different place then.  A bitter, sad, desperate place.  A place I hope I never return to... but if I do... I now know that people won't let me stay there long.  They will step in and they will speak truth into my life.  It's such a beautiful thing when you're able to experience people putting the Word into action.  A beautiful thing, indeed.

Now that I'm kind of removed from that my focus is very much the same as it has been in the past.  I long to have a hunger for the Lord, His word, and His people like I've never had before.  I want talking to Him throughout the day to be a natural thing.  I don't want my time with Him to be out of anything but pure desire to know Him more.  I want to be a light in the darkness.  I want to love the ones it's hard to love.  I want to make a difference.  That's what I want... but how do I make that reality?  Try.  Pray.  Seek His Face and trust that He will change this heart of mine.  I know that He will.  How?  Because - He has.  He is.  I've seen Him do marvelous things and I have no doubt that He will do a work in me and through me!!  I'm not worthy but none of us are.  Not one.  So - I'm willing.  I'm willing to serve.  I'm willing to love.  I'm willing to do the hard things.  Because - that's what it's all about.  It's not always easy and it's definitely not always fun but isn't it worth it?  I think so.

Life.  Man.  I can't believe my life right now.  I'm living downtown.  DOWNTOWN.  I live with 4 amazing women, 3 cats, and a dog.  Hahaha.  Yes, it's a lot... but it's nice.  It's not crowded.  It's not overwhelming.  It's just... home.  and - I love it.  I love my room.  I love being so close to work and church.  I just... love it.  and - I'm happy.  It's taken me a while to get here.... to get to the happy... to find the joy... but I'm here and I don't want to lose that again.  There's been so much drama wrapped up in the last 2 years and they were an amazing 2 years but I'm so very thankful to be starting a new chapter in my life.  I have a feeling this will be different than any other and I can't wait!!