I'm not gonna lie... life has been pretty difficult lately. I've been kind of down for a while now. There's no specific reason or person that led to this sadness I was experiencing...it was just there. Lots of tears. Lots of bad attitudes. A whole lot of unnecessary crap. My emotions were out of control. Then last week the shit hit the fan and for some reason it always takes me by surprise. Ha. I should probably just expect it. It had the opportunity to cause confusion, vulnerability, make me feel rejection, make me feel unloved, make me feel insecure and powerless and for about 10 minutes it did. I gave in to all of those feelings... but then I composed myself and realized that life is too short and I am too old to be dealing with stuff like this. I can't make anyone love me or want to be my friend and if someone decides they basically want me out of their life then that's their loss because I'm pretty fantastic. Did I mention funny? Because - I'm pretty hilarious most of the time. Ha. So - life has been rough... but I rest in the fact that the Lord's timing is perfect. There's a reason for all of this. I may not know or understand it but He knows what He's doing. :o)
So - things are looking up. The sadness is still there but it's on it's way out the door and I am excited to see it go! I believe 2012 is going to be the year of change for me. That's my claim on it anyways!! 4 changes already happening in the month of January alone!!! YESSSS!!!!! Bring. It. On. I'm ready. Are you?
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